Sigh, this holiday is just the worse for me. I had never been this emotional,lonely,sad,heartbroken,etc etc wadeva u can think of. sigh. For the past few years, I've been putting on hold most of my priorities, be it monetary stuff, personal time etc etc. Sigh maybe to some of you you dont see it this way, well that i cant do anything about it. Its really tough to live through by myself. I lost half of myself since the beginning of the holiday. and yeah i dont think ill be able to get it back. sigh. what could possibly be worse..? its real tough to have this resolve and determination to hold on. But i still believe, and ill continue to believe that all the times that we've been through will not be for naught. All the feelings, memories and tears ill never let them disappear. I wont run away, i wont hide my feelings, i wont give up.
Sigh, ill be taking a break from all these. You guys may think I'm contradicting from wad i had said, well thats up2u to think wad you want.
All i can say is 我还想她 我还爱她. Yep =]

♥ Wednesday, April 08, 2009