oh great! its just a few hours away from tml.. the mid-sem! and im still not studying!!! holy crap!!! i just cant get myself down to study.. hmm, its not because im confident.. its not because its just 15%.. somewhr inside my mind and heart just wont peace out.. hais... spent the whole afternoon doing nothing watching one episode of drama then i went to nap till 8pm..

hais.. been sleeping right alot.. i wonder why.. in the past i wont take afternoon nap AT ALL unless really buey tahan... hais... lets see my mid-sem schedule:

Monday : OB- 3pm-4pm
Tuesday : OTBS- 9am-10am
Thursday : Marketing- 9am-10am
Friday : Business Stats- 3pm-4pm

oh wow... hahaha...damn weird timing.. oh well.. guess i better start cracking! even if its needed to burn midnight oil.. hais.. im scared.. not failing.. but having eye bags T_T... my eye bags, panda eyes coming out soon T_T.. noooooo that sucksssss pleaseeeeeee dun appear T_T...

ahh, sometimes i sort of "lost" control of my legs when im walking.. gosh.. hahaha.. i wonder whats wrong... hehehe.. alright i promised i'll look after myself so ill do it..cause

If you cant love youself, you're not fit to love someone else right? :)

P.S. oh great news! my hair is starting to grow longer!! woohoo... Great isnt it? hope before that day ill have a longer hair baaaaaa!!!
oh yeah forgot to mention its been so long since i last bought something for myself.. haha yeah.. been so long.. i couldnt rmb wad was the last thing i got for myself.. hahaha...probasbly this will be another "last" thing ill get for myself till months later ba~

♥ Sunday, May 31, 2009

sigh.. why am i always blogging at such hours..? its 4.25am right now... it seems like its raining outside right now..feels kind of cold.. but its not raining.. sigh.. wonder.. whats wrong with me.. i've been feeling cold and hot way too easily for the past few weeks.. oh great.. something's definitely wrong with me! used to be able to stand cold in the past right now its IMPOSSIBLE.. oh well craps...



let me get things done asap and sleep ba.. guess it shld be yesterday, saturday~ went to CP meet up with jx for awhile..took something from her.. then asked her to accompany me to shop awhile.. oh great.. seems like im addicted to shopping..haahaha... shop awhile and i burned a BIG BIG HOLE in my pocket!!! i bought a * and a water dispenser.. oh great it cost $10!!!

tadaaa cool eh!!!

hahahah cute right!! if u are wondering wads those words its "8 Glasses of water, Your Daily minimum requirement!" wahahaha... since it was on sale at $10 only i bought it out of fun!!! xDDD yeah and it burned a freaking big hole in my pocket =/...

sigh.. another crap stuff...after today tml is the start of my mid-sem.. hais.. after tat..holiday... damn.. what can i say.. am i gonna go thru the same things as my last holiday? i duno.. everything will reveal itself when that day arrive..

oh and it seems like i'll be changing the skin soon ba.. yeah! after that day arrive ill decide~ =D.. hahaha alright its 4.35am right now.. time to slp! Oyasumi~

~watashiwa anatawo aishiteru 私を与えてくださいチャンス~

♥ Sunday, May 31, 2009

hais.. gosh.. dint know..time passes so fast.. its alrdy the first half of the sem.. next week having mid-sem..crap totally CRAP!... just got to know something.. which sucks even more.. yet another screwed up crap...

oh well nvm.. barely had enough sleep yesterday... slept at 430 am+, but was rolling here and there on my bed till 630am.. cool huh.. was awake this whole 2 hours.. haha.. finally was able to sleep till 12pm.. gosh.. im real tired..

when to school, usual stuff BOE then OTBS.. after that went over to vivo with sacchi.. yeah shopped all the way from 615pm till 845pm.. haha.. i dint know shopping can be this fun.. xD.. haha guess im getting addicted to stuff pretty easily now.. will smoking be next? i wonder... he was looking for jackets oh great.. haha rich fellow.. dont wanna say much =x..

reach home around 950pm.. straight went out and ran.. haha.. its soooo different, the view of the day time and night time.. haha.. ran till 1035pm.. hmm improvement or not? i dun think so.. hais..

thats all folks! nites!!!

♥ Friday, May 29, 2009

Sigh.. mid-sem test next week.. i still havent study.. for goodness sake.. what am i suppose to do.. too much on my mind.. missing her so damn much.. hais.. crap.. this is totally crap... whats happening to me... probably i fallen too deep.. head hurting real badly this few days.. totally lack of sleep these few days.. probably cause i cant sleep.. the dreams i had seems as though im actually experiencing it real-time.. totally unbearable.. arghhh...

sigh..today ar..wednesday.. dismiss at 1pm.. sigh.. stayed back to do OB quiz..5%.. crap 14/20 with help of friends.. but anyway doesnt matter much to me.. =] thanks ppl who helped me.. after that had lunch with usual people... SERIOUSLY i need to watch what i eat from now.. this whole week up till now been eating chicken chop for goodness sake.. damn.. lol.. gained too much fats le.. my tummy.. no one likes =/.. big fatty roundy tummy.. hais.. kanna abandoned by her liao LOL =D... im exercising to reduce the tummy > : )..

dint felt like running today.. duno why.. probably cause im too tired or what.. oh well.. when i got off the bus.. saw the weather.. omg.. its so damn nice.. sunny! tempting me SO DAMN much to go.. ended up i did >_>.. ran and ran.. on the way back.. i finally decided to check out the SengKang rivervale Park.. hmm nothing there de.. but its quite a pretty nice place.. quiet.. nice scenery sigh.. sat there stoned.. thinking.. and more thinking.. i guess i sat there till like 6pm.. roughly 30mins ba.. hais.. after that jog back home.. suddenly my whole chest started to hurt real badly when im reaching.. felt as though my lungs went numb or what.. it freaking damn painful.. hais.. reach home cont-ed to do some exercise.. etcetc then took a nap..

im pushing my body as hard as i can... to the point i want to even collpase on the ground.. i duno why.. and it seems like i had been forgetting alot alot of things.. crap.. sorry..

P.S.hais.. wo hai xiang ta.. wo zhen de heng xiang ta.. qing gao shu ta.. wo ai ta.. wo xiang ta.. =]

alright people.. nites..

♥ Thursday, May 28, 2009

hello there.. been reading my blog? if you did, know how i feel? if you dont, or you feel that my post doesnt make any sense.. thats good.. im trying not to make any sense here you see.. sometimes i even wonder what the hell am i blogging about.. some how i just feel like saying certain things..

oh well.. pretty boring life i have here after i.. *sigh*.. yeah.. everything just dont seems right to me.. the presence of that someone seems to be here but actually not.. sigh... been dreaming.. yeah for the past few months.. without fail, about her.. hais.. those dreams are killing me.. bit by bit.. haha.. yeah bit by bit.. they just somehow seems to be so real.. im actually feeling emotions.. tears and all.. those hollowness.. those pain.. omg.. i wonder.. what will happen..

sigh.. i've been sleeping alot lately.. i duno why.. somehow something's wrong with me.. been taking naps every now and then.. whats happening to me..? oh god.. seriously.. next week im gonna have mid-sem test.. i duno how to concentrate like this.. crap this is crap totally crap... tomorrow having marketing mock test.. i dunno how am i suppose to pass.. haha.. pathetic me...

indeed im the biggest idiot.. letting go, saying stuff i shldnt, regretting and so? hais...

BC hang in there >< you too!

♥ Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Hi ppl! 23rd of may, 23rd.. sigh my bro birthday~ why 23rd.. such number of all. alright.. slept at 5am the previous day and was forced to wake up at at 2pm >_>... hais.. asked to bath etc etc then help to carry things down to the car.

gosh there's sure alot of things man.. the car was so packed! lols..then finally set off at ard 3 ba.. went to pick up my cousins and headed over to East Coast Park's GoldKist... alamak..even my bro frens reached earlier then us lols. alright reached there, started moving things out to the chalet.. hais.. damn heavy damn tiring.. finally finished moving things, i noticed his frens were blowing balloons.. lol.. then i realised.. that place is filled with ppl having birthday celebration.. lols left and right of our units were all having the same occasion.. hais..

finally the keys came! went in headed up to the second floor for the aircon! xDDD... relax in there rest awhile enjoyed the aircon then went down and have a look.. ala..goo timing i have there, my mum was cooking and im hungry =D hehehe... started eating wadeva there is there.. then i realised.. its not a BBQ session but buffet session..alammak.... all along i tot was BBQ sia.. oh well.. slacked and sat at the stairs..watching them prepare.. hanging up the balloons and such.. hais.. damn freaking boring and alone bo bian..

around 6+ my cousins all went for swimming.. and i was alone! hais.. walked around back and forth..nothing to do.. hais.. sat at one place watching frens and relatives coming in.. slowly slowly without me knowing the place was filled with ppl liao.. inside and outside..lols.. hais.. alright then the cake came~ was kept inside the room cuz the fridge was not LONG enough lol... went down had my dinner and such..

this part whr it sucks most... i was asked damn alot of times, why your gf nvr come. damn irritating, damn frustrating, i duno how to freaking answer them.. seems like they all like my gf? worse still i got asked continuously 3 times in a row.. all by my relative one after another.. god Fuck it.. making me cry or wad? god.. it was a real pain in the ass to spend time there... nothing for me to do.. no one for me to hang out with.. no one for me to sms with.. god.. i wonder how i managed to kill off time..

alright its starting soon, i was asked to bringdown the cake oh well.. bring lo.. and there started the photo taking session everyone group by group lols!.. hais.. lots of ppl.. aiyo.. then finally birthday song.. and cakessss too bad not my favourite LOL!.. then slowly, noticed the crowd starting to clear.. group by group going back home.. lols..then around 1230am..

i went out to macdonald.. yeah i walked there.. i was "stucked" inside the resort, cuz i duno where to go out..then i went over to the main entrance and started walking there.. hais.. its so damn dark and lonely.. i kept thinking how long will it take me to reach there..as i walk, it hurts so much.. seeing couples couples, seeing pairs and pairs.. alamak.. that totally sucks.. hais.. oh finally after around 30-40mins of walking? i reached mac! it turned out to be full! ala.. hais.. slowly Q-ed up.. got my stuff headed back..guess its much faster took me 20mins nia..lol wee..

reached le.. saw my cousins all watching tv waiting for my grand return xD.. haha was sweating real badly.. finally got myself settled down... cooled down and started eating =D!!! hoi they were watching horror show RAWR>_>... oh well... nvm... then slacked around till 2+, smsed the usual ppl to call in and conf.. waited till 230am then they called.. i smsed them since 8+ >_>.. hais.. we all talked for like 1hour 30mins.. not WE but them, i merely sat there listened all the way.. hais.. how i wish the one with me on the phone is.......

hais.. all the way listening them talking laughing there.. i can only say im sian sian sian... all the way till 4am.. hais... after they all went to sleep.. i absolutely got nothing to do.. so i started playing my psp.. all the way till 5.. and i buey tahan liao... damn sleepy.. and went up to slp.. i slept all the way till morning when we were gonna book out LOL.. which was at 2pm! hahaha.. and started moving things back onto the car and home sweet home.. hais..

thats all ppl! ill post pic if i feel like it.

♥ Sunday, May 24, 2009

Yo ppl! its soon 5am right now.. yeah.. im tired..but i cant sleep..why? too much on my mind.. wads on my mind? its pretty obvious isnt it? sigh... 5am 5am... sigh.. i duno wad to say.. im both physically and mentally tired.. i wonder how long can i last...

today's my bro birthday.. guess ill be hanging around at his chalet later in the day ba..sigh.. it sucks.. how i wish ya there.. aww.. hahaha... i wonder how am i suppose to kill time when im there... oh well.. ill see how things goes ba.. chalet at goldkist? lols...

oh..if ya wondering wad am i doing for the past 5 hours.. actually.. from 1230 onwards.. i was playing my psp.. and after that.. i stoned and stared at m laptop for an hour +++.. till 3 when i came across Lupin III vs. Detective Conan and watched it all the way till right now..hahah... hais.. guess im finally able to sleep right now..

Nites ppl!...

♥ Saturday, May 23, 2009

today is just so terrible! gosh.. worried about my ez-link card having not enough money before i left house..and yes it came true... GOD.. wth is wrong sia.. $1.15 not enough? in the past im still able to ge on the bus with this amount of money. now? cant at all wtf? so wad if theres a negative value? totally pissed me off.. thank goodness i got coins with me.. if not ill be cursing and swearing out -_-...

reached tampines got down the bus walked all the way to buy my concession and top up -_-.. starting sweating and worrying i might be late for class... hais.. thank god i wasnt.. kept smsing the Iris.. chking out the bus arrival time >_>..

finally reached school and guess wad i only got $2 for the WHOLE day to spend!! amazing right!.. i didnt eat anything in the morning and afternoon..hungry like fk >_>.. no choice im saving for something.. such crap is NOT GONNA bring me down xD... had BOE and OTBS lesson today.. hais... BOE nothing much handed in my proposal for comments.. okok la... then OTBS.. working on our PHP individual project the whole day... well i slacked most of the time.. reading manga LOL.. i just merely aim for a pass or higher abit.. im not like others who AIM for the sky.. gosh..

finally i had my first meal of the day at 6pm++.. wow.. i was real happy that i got to eat something.. whole day i was just drinking water >_>..to suppress my hunger.. guess thats just how i am.. hehe.. actually planned to go tampines to do a little shopping.. but ended up decided to stay back with frens to do php.. noonoo.. i accompanied them while i played psp and reading manga.. xD... hahaha, i dint wanna go shopping cuz im alone.. and i hate that feeling right now...

i was real lazy to go home myself today.. called my mum to come fetch me lol.. first time sia! well stayed in school till like 830.. handed in my project before i left.. sigh... after that sat thru the whle journey.. when i reached home..my head was hurting >_>..real hurting for hours.. till around like 1215 my bro came back... he was drunk -_-.. he shouted for me a few times i dint hear LOL... SORRY =x... then finally i heard DIIIIIIIII... i went out saw him sitting on the ground at the door... tot he hurt his leg or wad -_-... asked me for HOT water so i gave him REAL HOT water xD... hais.. see him drunk.. make me think.. yeah im not gonna drink ever again.. lol.. i wanna have a clear mind at all times..to prevent me from doing or saying stupid idiotic stuff...

well thats all folks! guess ill continue to stare at my laptop for awhile more ba.. i duno wad to do.. my life is just messed up by myself.. if i could time travel.. i would have stopped myself from falling for her *nodnod*.. why? ask me if u wanna know LOL =D.. Nites people!

Thanks to those who helped me with PHP! without u guys.. i might be still struggling >_>

♥ Saturday, May 23, 2009

hmm.. seems like today is quite a disaster.. sigh.. nvm lets start with school!

had marketing first.. sigh.. i seem like an idiot i duno why just think so.. after that had THREE hours of break! went to have lunch with the usual ppl.. then head up to silicon and slacked... i started my RC and went into my lalaland... slept for like an hour plus if im not wrong.. then woke up started moving around the lab looking at fren's php work.. throughout the whole time in silicon lab.. im shivering -_-..its freakking cold inside... i wonder issit me or wad.. hais..

head over for OB after that.. i was totally kind of pissed off with the teacher.. keep dragging time -_-..telling us stories.. sigh.. i better dun comment much.. then benedict came in telling us tml he will be late for lesson due to graduation ceremony.. ok so be it..as long as he dun drag our time can le..

after tat went over to tamp-1 to help jian chk stuff and my own stuff as well.. then "rushed" over to NYP to meet them.. guess i was lucky that the bus came right on time when i reached the interchange =D..hehe.. reached le.. slowly walked to the shopping arcade? nvr hear properly.. then met that 2 idiots outside with their frens.. lol.. intro le we slacked around head over to amk hub to meet the rest.. finally from around 630 or so to 730 finally everyone arrived.. and we took 30 mins to think of a place to eat.. hais.. cmi cmi.. then after that something happened.. i dun wann talk about it..

after that around 9 everyone separated ways.. i listened to some stories.. of my frens.. sigh.. come to think of it.. im actually consider real lucky and happy compared to them.. sad i dint treasure.. kept.. oh well..

ppl! QUIT RUBBING MY HEAD LAAAAA... aiyo wads so nice to rub sia > : )... wanna rub so much go cut botak la =D rub until u song. stop rubbing my head cuz ya rubbing my luck away > : (... so STOPPPPP!!!

somehow theres a fear implanted in me.. whenever i go places where i usually went with her.. im scared wad will happen if i bump into her.. wad will i think wad will i do if i see her.. i may just go into emo-state... sigh.. my heart is always pumping faster whenever im at those places.. crap.. sigh i miss her... im tired of this.. im tired of spending time alone.. AHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tadaa : just finished watching Tsubasa Chronicles: Shunraiki OVA 2 .. finally!! yes! the second episode came out after duno HOW many months of waiting.. indeed tsubasa chronicle is such a tear-jerking anime.. its one of the best anime ever.. am i weird for crying over anime? sigh.. probably somewhere inside me my wire is connected wrongly... same goes for clannad another tear-jerking anime.. check it out guys.. i dun intro sucky animes =/

♥ Tuesday, May 19, 2009

well another week passed... and no progess at all.. sigh.. sometimes i wonder.. sometimes i feel like asking her..sometimes i wanna ask her how are you hows sch..etc etc.. but i just cant find the courage to do it.. sigh.. hahaa pathetic me right..? wad kind of guy i am.. lols.. sometimes i wonder did she found herself a new guy? if she did means shes real happy being with that guy ba..sigh.. why am i even saying all these on my blog.. knowing she wun even read other then u ppl =D..haha anyway..ty for the invisible support u guys are giving me.. i appreciate it =]... i would really have broken down somewhr during the holiday if it werent for u guys.. u guys know who u are =D... therefore i wun stop i wun give up.. ppl say im dumb..ppl say im stupid..ppl say why am i so stubborn.. but all i can say is.. im loyal =].. hee~

alright ppl get on the main topic! lets see.. today had Business Stats test..5% omfg i cant do at all.. i gotta peek at angeline's work to get some clue xD! SORRY AANGELINE!!! bo bian.. hahaha let see... the test was..er.. gonna be so terrible if i dint study at all...formulas and such.. oh crap..lucky i did a last min revision haha... ty ppl who helped me! u know who u are!! =D... after that..slacked and as usual went and exercise.. sigh..

everyone is bugging to see my botak head >_>.. especially angeline and rosanne.. omg la.. hais.. went over to sports hall at like 430? started my running with eddy and jin kang who ran one round at 4.35 or so? i did it i did it! i ran 6 rounds!!! hahahaha so proud of myself! first 5 rounds without stopping at all! last round sort of sprint with all my remaining energy.. after that straight went to play badminton with those ppl.. hahaa lets see probably im trying to torture myself? my chest seems to be hurting abit while im running.. i guess its common? i duno.. well thank god nothing happened to me?

had dinner at biz park..i didnt really ate anything the whole day.. only drank milo and had one egg sandwich for the whole day.. haha was super hungry xD.. bo bian im trying to save up.. for something... hehe.. and went back home!.. well shld i say im lucky or wad.. bus came straight when i reached the bus stop.. and YEAH finally got to sit on bus27!! so happy..sat down and started staring at my psp >_>.. hahaha... thats all folks cya tml!

♥ Monday, May 18, 2009

weee... haha im botak now guys!! its so cooling right now!!



met up with weishen at 11 in CP.. haha then the 2 of us slacked around CP for about an hour or so..went to buy beanie at 14.90! gosh.. not bad la.. then finally went into EC house and cut botak!!! wow si bei cool sia.. watching my hair kanna ZZZZZZZZZZZZZ off my head xDDD...hahaha now my head is like a brush xD..been such a long time such i last felt this way =D... sad thing my ears are abit way too out T_T..makes me look so ugly hahahaha...



the last photo of my having my hair :

hahaha xDDD well.. took me quite alot of courage to go botak sia.. well hope for a new start with her if possible /=... wweeeeee

♥ Saturday, May 16, 2009

sigh.. today the weather suits me real well.. felt like crying ever since i started otbs.. man.. its seriously too unbearable for me at that point of time.. sigh.. i duno wad to say.. tried my hardest not to cry but its REAL hard.. the feeling of emptiness inside me is way beyond my control.. sigh.. on the way back home as well... stood on the bus.. thinking and thinking... kept looking up the sky trying to keep the tears from flowing.. damn.. this is a lesson for me, this is the punishment im gettting, this is my retribution. sigh.. i wun give up.. i wun back out.. i wun let it extinguish.. for im a loyal guy =].. its real hard to keep all my tears when im ard my frens.. its even harder to keep a smile up infront of them.. im trying my best here.. hoping that one day.. ill be back by her side.. i wont keep feelings shut inside me.. i will say it OUT LOUD for my feelings to reach out to her... for this is for her.. im gonna become stronger..

now now shocked to hear YL and YQ stead sia.. dint know until ytd adrian told me lol! shocked to hear adrian got himself a gf as well! wow.. hahaha...

if im not wrong..base on my calculation.. i should be able to save up and get wad i wan in 2 weeks time..

i really need a shoulder to cry on... but at least... somehow i know.. ya doing fine =] ya happy thats good..=]..

♥ Friday, May 15, 2009

Wow, today supposed to start school at 4pm >_>.. cause of project i gotta reach school by 10 =D.. alright then..reached school around 940 to know rosanne overslept *nodnod*..alright its okay.. i dun really mind at least shes making an effort to come despite she not having lesson on thursday. then.. slowly walked towards Biz park, along the way, its filled with posters on election for BSC and TPSU? gosh.. saw some familiar faces on the posters.. lol i took some pictures will upload after this post..

then waited at Biz park for angeline to come >_>.. went over to silicon to start working.. oh man.. somehow we managed to finish quite early.. and i began playing Restaurant City lol.. afk put there and i rest on table.. real tired.. then proceed to BTL lab due to lesson starting in silicon.. there again saw my ex-mates all chionging php... i tried to help but FAILED >_>.. damit.. after that slacked until 2+ went to eat KFC blablabla...came back school around 315..

saw jx.. ggoshh told me dint see me for a long time? oh come on its just like 8 days? ever since from YL bdae.. haha.. between 330-4 im thinking of whether shld i go for my CDS which starts at 4... ended up i went >_>..lol.. i duno why.. seems like wad the teacher is teaching is wads happening to me in the past few months.. hahah... and im on my way home after that!!!

alright thats all ppl! when i feel like it ill post the picssss

♥ Thursday, May 14, 2009

hmm been like 3 days since i last blogged.. practically nothing much happening these few days.. life is just too strange and weird to me..lol.. oh well..guess i better slowly learn how to live through this period of time.. hoping dreaming praying all i can for ----

alright lets see.. monday as usual went to run at stadium and played badminton straight after that >_>.. gosh dint managed to complete 6 rounds.. why? TK cant make it, and i dun wanna run alone.. oh well wadeva xD..

tuesday dint went school, why? my chest is hurting and im feeling all **** up. something is really wrong with my chest.. been hurting more recently gosh...

wednesday.. today.. hmm went school as usual.. some elective subject we need to select before this friday.. guess ill decide tml ba.. had OTBS lesson.. been doing my PHP individual project..
MANY MANY MANY thanks to those who helped me with my work, without them i guess ill still be stucked there at the same spot. Thanks to : Angeline, Rosanne, Teck Koon, Wei Jie, Jin Kang. Seriously Thanks alot!!! =DDD

after that reach home around 5pm..seems like the weather to me is damn great, so i decided to go RUN x)... hahaha.. yeah seems like im improving little by little, able to run longer right now.. =D guess i better keep training.. right now im damn tired and hungry.. rawr..

♥ Wednesday, May 13, 2009

10th of may!
wahahahaha!!!! check this picture out! i took it at 9.18am.. WOW right? hahahaha so damn cute =D mond with his cute little "god"-son!! hahahahaha yeah i couldnt slp cuz i cant find a GOOD spot to rest myself.. and its real cold in his room.. tried my hardest to keep myself warm.. sigh..=] the rest were slping =D.. hais.. ahahaha... im tired..but i cant slp.. my eyes are watery.. my nose is getting blocked.. hais.. nice song making me this way ha.ha.ha alright ppl!

9th of may:

♥ Sunday, May 10, 2009

yeh another random post, sigh. it seems like, my appetite is really MESSED up right now =/. i get full easily as well as hungry easily. Just like today's lunch, i think its a packet of fried prawn mee. i BARELY finished half of it im FULL alrdy >_>. This is totally CRAP man. wads up with me! Probably my mood is causing all this CRAP out of me? Most likely. Oh well doesnt really matter. i really need to go on a diet ppl!!! Please Please PLEASE HELP ME CONTROL WAD I EAT PLEASE I WANNA SLIM DOWN! PLEASE REMIND ME OSO!

Alright went to school for a 2 hrs lesson -_-. just did self-intro whole day.. oh well lucky me for being the last second one to intro? hahaha. after i cabbed home. wow it took me only like 15-20mins. and it cost me $11.. suppose to be cheaper but thanks to all the red lights and jams. sigh.

Right now im DAMN hungry, but i know i can barely finish my usual meal >_>.. hahaha...

JASMINE happy? im para-ing all my post from now =D!!!

♥ Thursday, May 07, 2009

well just some stuff to update you ppl about me.

sigh..my appetite for the past few months totally AHEM liao.. i can barely finish a $2 chicken rice.. WOW right? with a 70cent milo im TOTALLY full, in the past.. this is NOTHING to me..but now..its probably just too much ba..guess my mood been affecting my appetite.. sigh..

random stuff : look at this big lollipop my bro bought back home from taiwan i guess o-o



its bigger then my fist o-o! lol xDDD yeah im bored, so im doing this randomly, hais..

♥ Wednesday, May 06, 2009

hmm, seems like its been forever since i last blogged.. sigh, oh well.. same state. alright! my bro came back on tuesday morning. wow.. its been like more then one month i dint see him alrdy? hmm dun seems like it to me... oh well.. probably im just deep in my thoughts and world ba. failed to realize stuff.. oh well..

today had a near 4 hours of OTBS lab >_>..gosh can really die.. its kind of boring.. but oh well.. just doing programming and more programming.. hahaha.. well finally its 2.45pm and the class ended.. phew~ no nid to suffer.. alright then went out to tamp mall to meet up with edmond and bear. why? cuz its YL bdae. if not i dun even THINK they're that good and kind enough to come over to TP.. Alright chit chat listen to them crap on the way to the floral shop to buy helium balloon. at first we thought the balloon cost only like $10? so we decide to buy 2, then went in chose the balloon, and i turned around looked at the machine, OMFG it cost $25.90 each -_-, i was like -_________-!!! i wanted to cancel one but then i saw the shop keeper re-entered the price to half of it, then i was HENG ar.. =D..thank god, had enough money to buy..

well.. i can nvr depend on that two to do anything de lo >_>, sometimes i wonder, wads so difficult for them just to do something or even merge with everyone.. my goodness. ended up i took the 2 balloon walking around >_>.. straight away after that wnt to school.

From the moment i stepped OUT of the bus at our school, ppl started to look at me/ my direction >_>..MY GOD..oh MAN.. slowly as i walked up the stairs.. watching the crowd coming out of the school... i was like *Oh no wth so many ppl* each and everyone i passed, they were looking at me O_O! even saw my classmates asking me wads up with the balloons LOL, obviously HAppy birthday =D not to me... then that 2 were trying to get away from me -_- wadeva lo. as i proceed to business school, its worse.. its god damn crowded.. oh well, same thing that happened walked passed everyone with them looking at me.. wahahaha, so embarrassed! oh well, but then after awhile got used to it. wads wrong with me carrrying balloons lol. we're still young =D.. ate lunch at biz park with that two, with the balloons tied to me bag.

hehe finally finished our lunch, head over to mushroom to meet up with jasmine.. along the way even ppl on the third floor were looking down at me according to bear. >_>.. haha, i wonder will there be any other ppl who will do such thing =D. if there is GOOD. reached there, waited and waited more ppl started showing up for YL's big day. lol, it god damn freaking warm. sweating so much.. i became the camera man again =D. how much i love taking photos now. too bad im not in most of the pic after all its not my camera =D... i on with anyone who wanna take picture with me =D. hehehe...

Gosh, a birthday cake without lighted candles? how forgetful can jasmine be to forget to bring the lighter out hahaha...lucky jx smart go security guard house to ask for one hahah..joker sia the ppl inside, say wad borrow the lighter to burn down the audit? gosh >_>.. oh well...slacked and slacked finally shes here! everyone went to sing song, take pics, etcetc... sigh wonder again why wun some just cooperate to take pic. seriously wtf is wrong man? will taking photo kill you? grow up ppl. some 18 some going to be 18. grow up seriously. one thing quit making ppl pissed off. alright?

alright pics up!





and finally a picture of me with the balloon! see a prove!!! hais, dun i look silly? hahaha with the balloons floating behind me xD

♥ Wednesday, May 06, 2009

Sunday 3rd of may, time sure flies dun you think..? its alrdy may.. i wonder how long has it been since we last "talked" or have our Q&A session. Sigh nvm, dun wish to say anymore.

Alright ! sunday as usual, boring, stayed at home staring at my laptop.. totally nothing to do at all... sigh, mum sold my phone away >_>..got me a new phone o-o! C905 =D. cool.. 8.1MP, i dun need a camera le =D..hahaha... then started exploring and testing out the functions. pretty much the same as other sony phones ba.. sigh, and my day ended just liddat, staring at the laptop whole day..going to the same website listening to the same songs over and over again.. how the hell i managed to do that? i wonder...

Monday! 4th of may! sigh..third week of school? time sure flies again.. well, manged to get up in the morning, despite being unable to slp much the previous night.. oh well.. rained in the morning.. kind of affected my mood.. everyone knows why =D... had usual normal lessons etc etc.. finally after school, went to the stadium and run 6 rounds of outer-lane, took me 35mins just to complete.. o-o kind of long isnt it...hahaha.. after that straight away went to play badminton with frens.. WOW amazing at how sweaty and wet i am. i didnt stop sweating at all. after that had dinner in sch at ard 7pm then went home le!!. =D.. right now im dead beat.. stomach hurting, just recover from fever..omg sigh... lucky me =D.. right now my left hand hurts oso.. just using abit of force on my left hand my muscle hurts >_>.. probably pulled my muscle or wad ba... oh well..guess after two or three days ill be back in tiptop condition =D..

oh yeah been into this song by Wheesung : Insomnia.. i do fit into the lyrics sia.. especially a sentence like this going : the thoughts of you are more real life-like then dreams.. gosh.. haha. thats all mates... night!!

i got scolded by jasmine! asking me to paragraph all my post ill edit them soon..

How long will this go on i wonder.. i can take it, i may complain sometimes but bear with me! :)

Right now im editting this post and its 1230am right now. im damn tired damn exhausted.. im crying... im laughing at the same time.. ironic eh.. hahaa.. gotta wake up at 6+ later..how am i gonna survive the whole day like this.. sigh.. the more i type, tears are gonna start flowing again.. alright... ima finish up my milk first hahaha..tml is gonna be a long long long long day for me.. im pulling myself tgt.. i might or alrdy have lost those bits and pieces of puzzle to my life.. but i believe, i believe.. :) all i can do now is, one step at a time.. no point rushing right =].. ppl kept saying im a fool im an idiot asking me to give up blabla, erm...shhh alright =D everything is a process of learning for me. so let me be =]. weeeee... hahahaha... my head is heavy, my eyes are heavy and watery, my mind is full of her. both physically and mentally tired..gosh..

sigh im sad, dint get in archery.. most probably cuz i sucked hard, im real sad, i tot i could at least get a cca, well probably cuz im in year2 thats why? they dun trust me? like i said cuz i sucked? cuz im a left handed? that they dun like left handed ppl in cuz we're troublesome? oh well... another dagger stabbed into my heart lol!

♥ Monday, May 04, 2009

ZzZzZ... im real tired right now.. woke up at 1040am to prepare for archery trial. woah.. etc etc finally on my way there.. sigh..i took a big DETOUR again to reach the field..well cant blame me cause i dint explore the school fully xD..
well theres quite a number of ppl who showed up. i didnt know THAT many ppl signed up for archery.. well kind of sad to know that my timeslot was at 1230pm..hais... oh well..had some briefing about the cca, that u gotta buy your own arrows cause its personal stuff.. and bow costing up to 900 plus plus for second hand -_-..gosh.. upon hearing this, one HERO left straight lol.. oh well cant blame him.. sigh.. shortly after the briefing, we went for a short warm up, ran abt 200m then warm up blablabla and finally began shooting. sigh..theres no left-hand bow there T_T..i gotta use my right hand..rawr that suck totally ok.. oh well first 3 shots was TOTALLY CMI, i shot the border LOL =D the black area and one out of the target O_O!!! second 3 shots alright im better this time =D, nearer to the bull eyes =D...and i hurt myself! man it was real painful when the bow-string hit u, the mark is damn obvious one patch there.. oh gosh.. but its worth it.. such pain, wow enjoyable! well, and after that we're dismissed! >_>..fast right? only 30mins for the whole stuff.. well results of in-take to be known on monday/tuesday.. hope i get in ba..

thats all guys, im damn hungry now. x-x nothing to eat sigh..
glad to see that you're doing fine continue that smile dun let it die : )

♥ Saturday, May 02, 2009