sigh.. today the weather suits me real well.. felt like crying ever since i started otbs.. man.. its seriously too unbearable for me at that point of time.. sigh.. i duno wad to say.. tried my hardest not to cry but its REAL hard.. the feeling of emptiness inside me is way beyond my control.. sigh.. on the way back home as well... stood on the bus.. thinking and thinking... kept looking up the sky trying to keep the tears from flowing.. damn.. this is a lesson for me, this is the punishment im gettting, this is my retribution. sigh.. i wun give up.. i wun back out.. i wun let it extinguish.. for im a loyal guy =].. its real hard to keep all my tears when im ard my frens.. its even harder to keep a smile up infront of them.. im trying my best here.. hoping that one day.. ill be back by her side.. i wont keep feelings shut inside me.. i will say it OUT LOUD for my feelings to reach out to her... for this is for her.. im gonna become stronger..

now now shocked to hear YL and YQ stead sia.. dint know until ytd adrian told me lol! shocked to hear adrian got himself a gf as well! wow.. hahaha...

if im not wrong..base on my calculation.. i should be able to save up and get wad i wan in 2 weeks time..

i really need a shoulder to cry on... but at least... somehow i know.. ya doing fine =] ya happy thats good..=]..

♥ Friday, May 15, 2009