Hello minna-san. Sorry for the long delay once again. Somehow time flies again, i guess i did mentioned about it in my previous post but whatever. Holiday is almost over, this holiday sure is a boring one. Well the main reason is.. alright lets be frank and say it out " I dont have HER by my side".
*Sigh*
Well cant help it, I'm the one who caused all these shits to happen on me. I just got to accept it and try my hardest and best to get her back. Indeed many things may not be the same as the past. Due to painful memories, scars and hurtful words said by either side. Lets say i'm trying to be stubborn here, it's possible to build up the relationship again. Although it's gonna be hell lot more harder now. Considering that she have her own life, people friends she consider as part of her life.
*Sigh*
Oh well, i wonder why am i saying all these here. I wonder why am i repeating myself over and over again throughout my WHOLE blog ever since that day. Well, had this conversation with some close friends over and over again. Even if i can wait 2 years after her A-lvls, after that so? Doesn't mean she will accept me like what i mentioned above. Another 2 years plus cause I'll be in the army? So what? After I'm out so? Lol. Some people told me are you sure you are able to wait for so long? My answer is definitely "YES". Well, they say time will prove it all. Sure I'll let time prove it. Even if in the end I'm still in the same old situation, at least i can say " Even though i Love you, because i love you. I got no complaints and will carry on waiting".
*Sigh*
Life is so UNPREDICTABLE. ----No offence mond---- Just recalling how his grandma passed away so suddenly. I wonder what if one day I'll too just gone like that. Crap.
*Sigh*
Last week, for the first time in my entire life. I cried in my sleep. Yes i cried! I can still remember what i dreamt of. I was crying so damn badly in my dream till it affected me and out of no where my in reality i began crying out. Kind of shocking, i know i'm crying yet i cant wake up. Sigh... what can i say, probably another "breakdown" but within my dreams? sheessh...
7th of Oct, went K-box with Jasmine YanLing JiaXuan Edmond. I suppose that was the first time i went K with my secondary friends. Sigh, somehow i find myself losing my voice bit by bit. You people know me that i speak softly ---i wonder why--- when it comes down to singing of cause it will be softer no? Well i'm real sorry for singing so softly thats just how i am. After K-box, we went over to serangoon chomp chomp and had our dinner.
9th of Oct, was kind of a bad day for me. Everything i did was totally wrong? cant help it. Kept making mistakes during work. My mood was totally off. I even dropped a drink that nearly spilled on the customers. Fuck it. alright nvm. After work, headed home called edmond to see if they were still mahjong-ing. Well they were, but i decided to go for a jog first before joining them. so yeah. Joined them for Mac abit of mahjong and went home at around 5.
20th/21st of Oct, had mahjong session at my house. Woke up at around 11 to "prepare" myself. Ended up, waited till around 3+ before they ( Edmond Rosanne JiaXuan Goldy Jian) came over. Oh well then started playing. Played till erm.. 8pm+ rest awhile for dinner started a new round. Then somehow out of no where someone called for another mahjong session at edmond's house. So, after my session ended at 12am plus, headed over to edmond's house for the NEXT round of mahjong. This time round Jian left Zariel and Bear joined. Oh well, played until 6am alright! headed into the room lied down on the bed, listened to Zariel bear and edmond talk. Gosh its god damn funny and somehow i got dragged into some of the topics. sigh no comments.
Headed home around 8am+. Reached home slacked on my laptop and went to bath. i Literally STONED and FORCED myself to stay awake till 1pm+ Well cause I'm going out with Jasmine JiaXuan and Weibin in the afternoon. It was SERIOUSLY FREAKING tiring to hold out. Finally, somehow i managed to last till 1+ bathed again and headed out. Met The 2 Js and headed over to bugis junction.
Well overall the trip i enjoyed myself. Its been a long time since i last went shopping with friends. For the past few months I've been shopping myself. Even if i wanted to buy some stuff, something just dint feel right. Probably I'm used to buying pairs couple double stuffs. Cant get used to buying single stuffs.
Oh well, shopped around saw quite alot of clothes and Bermudas. Hmm, just did some window shopping first. So headed over to Iluma shopping mall. Its been so long since i last shopped so there's so many many things i don't know. Oh well, sat at the Coffee bean and had a little chit chat session between the 3 of us. About 30-40mins of resting we began continuing our shopping. Well then shortly after 20 mins Weibin joined us. Slowly the 4 of us went around buying stuffs trying out stuffs. And out of nowhere someone suggested to take neoprints. Oh my Holy MaMa PaPa GOD. Alright then. Haha its been so long since i last took neoprint. I can remember the date so clearly. It was on the Valentine Day. Alright i'll stop here ><. Then headed over to NYDC for dinner.
Pretty amazing for the names. Unique should i say? Or am i just too dumb that i've been trapped inside my box for so long? The outside world had changed so much in just these 8 months. Yeah.. 8 months already.. lonely but cant help it. Alright I ordered "Tears Of Heaven" pasta which tasted almost exactly like the "Creamy Chicken" of pasta mania. Oh well, guess im lucky? Well after that shopped again and headed home already.
Overall i got 4 t-shirts, 1 bermuda and 1 slipper for myself. Total spendings near 150. Oh god how the hell i spent so much. Oh well never mind.
Well thats all folks. Im real tired now. its been almost 35 hours since i last slept, probably more i totally lost track of time here.
School starting soon, this is total crap. Timetable coming out in just 4hours and 30 minutes! oh boy. I hope my timetable will be a slack one. Please Just dont let me have any day that end at 6 please.
Alright Signing off people!
-bingღ-
-I.M.Y-
